Sick

This is one of the days that I really want to be there with my family, with my mom specially. Two reasons, first because I am sick :( there is no mom to take care of me and encourage me to study :( and second because this is the third or forth time I guess that I hear there was bombing near her work and the glass of her building was completely damaged ): I wish she stays alright till I get home ): it's been a year an half already and I haven't seen her or hugged her T_T which i used to to everyday ):

This really breaks my heart into million pieces ):

Funny ~

I just remembered something really funny, in the 19th of march 2011, my little sister suddenly started crying in the morning, we know that were about to die but still, we were ok, like laughing, eating and pretending we don't hear any of the bombing ... the thing is my sister was crying not bcuz she was scared, she imagined our neighbor holding his two lil girls and the army attacked them "and of course killed them" ... she couldn't handle that picture ... she just wanted to die first so she doesn't see anyone she knows gets hurt...that was the plan for all of us .... to live together or die together ~

A dream

This is so weird, I've been dreaming that Benghazi is being attacked by Gaddafi's air force for a week now. Is it because 19th of March is so close? hmmmm  

No time ~

I have sooo much things to say but time doesn't let me do anything ~_~
Maybe If I can go back to Libya, to my lovely Benghazi, I will be able to write some things.
Hopefully ):
I miss Benghazi and I miss the people of Benghazi soooo much ...

Six Months ~

    It's been six months since I left Libya, I was and still sad because I left all the people I love there and the most important is that I left Libya when the situation is still critical which really breaks my heart. Life here is comfortable somehow but so stressful specially if you are alone, I mean without your family or your best friends who used to support me the whole time. This is a new life for me, I am not used to depend on myself in everything, and I mean EVERYTHING!, so I kinda feel exhausted and sometimes wish I was home with mom :( I miss her so much! I've never been away from her this long!

Although I left my family and my best friends but lucky me I found my second family and best friends here too ~ Kholoud and Mehad, I love them so much. Noor, She's my sister and Mrs. Abushagoor is like my mom. They are the only thing who makes me hold on this far. I also have other friends who are very special to me, my roommate Marcela, she's the sweetest ever!, my best friend fulbrighter from East Timor, Felismina. Also, Selien, Karan, Pedro and Jose who are really true friends! There are other friends who really mean a lot to me ~ and there is always this friend who's always there when you're really depressed, Fahd. Probably, he's the most person who knows how I feel as living away from Libya because he's been there.

I don't know if I have the power to move on till the end specially these days, I'm just gonna pray to Allah to guide me to the right way whatever it was.

I have a lot of things to say about my journey so far but I have a lot of homeworks so maybe I'll write more in the break which is in two weeks.

Salam~